Hello my darling Angelica ,
Today is November 4, 2020 and you have committed to The Real Deal Project for 180 days. Yes you read that right 180 days and I know you’re wondering why? The reason for me committing to this project is that I’m tired of hiding behind oversized clothes and not be able to look in a mirror and say you are beautiful. I’m tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending everything is fine when in reality I feel stressed, exhausted and disgusted with myself daily. I’m tired of lying to myself when I look into my closet and say you will fit back into those clothes that I held onto because I was going to lose the weight. I’m tired of buying the next size up every time I gain weight and hiding the old clothes so it doesn’t look like I bought more. I’m tired of being the “Fat Girl” of the group and feeling insecure all the time. I’m tired of hiding behind a camera and not being in pictures. I’m tired of putting on clothes and then covering myself up with a sweater to hide my body. 180 days is a long time but if I don’t start putting myself first for once then I’ll dig myself into an early grave and leave my family to suffer my death. It’s time to wake up and get my life back. My goal for the next month is to be able to drink a gallon of water every day without giving up and to still do a workout on the days I don’t attend class even if it’s just a walk with the baby. My mid term goal is to lose about 10 pounds. My overall goal is to be a healthier version of myself and to have the confidence to wear more fitted clothes and to stop hiding behind them. Yes I’m feeling very scared and stressed over this whole project and stepping out of my comfort zone has me wanting to toss in the towel and give up. But you know what you showed up for day one and you will be stronger at the end of this project and you will feel better about yourself then you did on day one. Love,Angelica
We all start somewhere.
Results are more than the number on the scale